I decided to take pictures of my P90X progress.....very, very depressing is all I can say. My weight is fluctuating like crazy and has been doing so a lot over the last 4 days. Water weight is the cause I believe. I hope that taking pictures to monitor my progress will help to keep me motivated. Here we go!!!!!!

So, I began my yearly anti- resolution routine by claiming I wouldn't make any resolutions to better myself.....even though there are things I struggle to change in myself for the better! As I get older, the struggle with my weight has continued. I feel quite ashamed to be 26 years old and in such poor shape! I can stick to routines if I try but life always seems to get in the way and I give up. I have made excuse after excuse as to WHY I cannot do this! And as I have packed on the pounds, I decided to buckle down and make the change.

I started eating better and taking yoga a couple of times a week almost three months ago. I wanted to start slow so I wouldn't get frustrated and want to quit. I have now re-committed myself to the P90X workout and just completed my first week of phase one. I am FINALLY going to do this and am looking forward to seeing myself transform into a better and healthier me!

I often feel like a 50-something year old trapped in a 26-year-old's body sometimes. I am rocking out to music from the early to mid 60s while the majority of people around me are using the word "like" for every other word in their conversations. This is probably one reason I am still in college. I get fed up with the majority of my generation way too easily and this in turn caused all of my semesters off over the last 7 years.

I really hate when people put themselves in stupid situations and then want to cry to everyone they know and expect them to feel sorry for them! Excuse me for not giving a shit! As my parents have repeated to me as I was growing up, "You made your bed, now you have to lie in it."