Life.....

has been......well sort of crazy I suppose. Lots of bad and good things have happened to me in the last month. And honestly, the good are kind of weighing out any of the bad. Let's hope this continues.

Changes.

I have found myself in a weird situation over the last couple of weeks. I have always been one to follow my heart and not always what my gut and brain are telling me to do. My entire life growing up, my mom would always tell me that if I ever lied to her about something she would always find out about it. Because "the truth always comes out".

And as much as I hate to admit when my mother is right........she usually is 95% of the time.

I'm not going to blog to the world details but I made a very big decision on Friday that would have affected my life forever had I not gone through with it. I'm ok. I'm actually not very upset at all. And I think that just makes it 100% clear to me that I had no business thinking I was ready for something with someone I can't trust at all.

I'm a strong and independent woman and I'm going to be just fine.

Rut, rut, rut.

That is what I'm in. I have been a little bit better the last few days. It's hard to be upbeat when you are stuck in a situation that no one seems to want to resolve but you. I can't pretend that things are fine when they're not. I have never been that kind of person and I just can't bring myself to really ever be that way. It's not who I am.

Argh.

I'm at my breaking point. And the worse part is....my heart is what's breaking the most. Ugh.