Rut, rut, rut.

That is what I'm in. I have been a little bit better the last few days. It's hard to be upbeat when you are stuck in a situation that no one seems to want to resolve but you. I can't pretend that things are fine when they're not. I have never been that kind of person and I just can't bring myself to really ever be that way. It's not who I am.

Argh.